I think Joel’s dad said it best to me when he said that we’ve received Christmas a little early this year- our family is blessed to have the powerful Emmanuel- God with us- at our side. He hasn’t left us or forsaken us- or even Seth for that matter.
Last night, Joel and I were able to weep together- maybe even mourn for what opportunities our little boy may not have, the trials our family might endure. But the Lord promises us in Psalm 30:5, “Weeping may last for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”
Funny how I can actually take comfort in the fact that Down Syndrome is a completely random event- it can happen to anyone at anytime. That just speaks to the Lord’s will for our life. He ordained this. Even if it is nothing, He wants Joel and I- and even you- to endure this time to be drawn to Him or to come to a saving faith in Him for the first time in your life.
So, I woke up with great peace this morning. I am at peace knowing that whoever Seth is, He is chosen by
the Lord to be my son. And I rejoice in this gift! Ella and I went to buy him a soft blue blanket today- just like her pink one. I hope he loves it as much as his big sister loves hers.
The Lord is speaking to me in so many ways today- His presence is so thick in this house. Throughout Ella’s pregnancy, this first time mom was anxious like any other- and I leaned on the words of that song that we sing so often, “Blessed Be Your Name.” Joel and I discussed it yesterday on the way to our appt. We cried, knowing that whether we would have “the sun shining down on us or facing a road marked with suffering,” we would boldly proclaim, “Blessed be the name of the Lord!” Roger called last night to discuss Sunday morning’s song set with me and said, “You know- I am feeling led to sing Blessed Be Your Name this Sunday.” (Oh Lord, you are so interested in helping us through this!) More tears……well, this morning, as I finished my time with the Lord and turned on some music to get the day started, what started playing? That song. I fell to the floor and wept again, knowing that this is my word from the Lord- He is faithful- He is all powerful- He is deserving of our praise- He is good to us no matter the circumstance. I will probably be crying more than singing on Sunday morning- but let it encourage you that the Lord has given us this word and for that I rejoice and have great joy!
For those of you who may not know, I am directing a contemporary choir at our church this year- we have a large group of faithful, loving people. Tonight at choir rehearsal before we started, I felt led to share with the group the burden that Joel and I have been carrying this week. They surrounded us in prayer- lifting up one voice after another as they prayed detailed prayers for our family and our son. The peace that washed over us was immense- for the first time this week, I felt normal again. What a blessing it is to us that we don’t have to bear this burden alone! The testimonies and encouragement that followed overwhelmed me as people committed to praying for us in the coming months and told us of similar situations where the Lord had worked miracles for others. I even had people tell me that they have been praying for us over the weekend and through these past two days, just because the felt the Lord laid us on their hearts- only to find out tonight why. Praise God!
Keep praying for us- we’ve got our highs and lows……But my heart is steadfast in the Lord’s faithfulness to me, Joel, my sweet Ella and my precious Seth.
JOYFUL in the Lord, Em